My friend asked me a great question recently that left me thinking… The timing was perfect because I had actually been processing the same thing a lot over the past several months and hadn’t really shared it with anyone. It’s a question that I’ve been asked before & also a question I often ask others. This is the question: If time or money and in this case kids, family, church, business etc. wasn’t a factor, what would you be doing? Like what’s your current dream?
All my life I’ve been a dreamer, I have a tendency to be a dream machine. I’m been really great at coming up with awesome ideas, and even followed through with them. I’ve also started many ideas & didn’t follow through, and became extremely frustrated in the process. I’ve realized after many hard knocks, many times trying something and it not working out that every idea I have does not have to be for me. Granted, I realize that we all need to dream and wish and hope for things but at the same time when you are an idea machine and have what seems to be 50 million ideas a day it can be a bit overwhelming at times, especially if you feel the need to follow through with every idea that runs through your mind. (yikes!)
Have you ever entertained the idea that maybe all of your ideas are not meant for you to accomplish? Maybe they are there for you to help others get a blueprint for a dream in their heart. Maybe your job is to help others get on track with an idea/dream that they have had & bring the clarity and vision of what could be and encourage them and help them along their own journey.
I’m starting to see the difference. I’m also realizing that people like myself can get so caught up in dreaming about what they want to do and accomplish next, that they forget that they are currently living the dreams they prayed into and believed for yesterday. But because they are so focused on what’s next, they can miss out on what they’ve dreamed about for the past several years simply because they don’t realize their current reality. They are too busy dreaming up the next big thing to be present and live the present reality of yesterday’s dream.
Let me give you an example, when I was growing up I dreamt of going away to college, getting married, and having two children. I dreamt of the home I would have and places I would go and take my family. I dreamed of traveling and ministering all around the world to share the love and kindness of Christ with others. I dreamt of living in other countries, I dreamt of being a ministers wife and even took a crazy class called the ministers wife in college. ( that’s a story for another day). I dreamt of filling my home with beautiful things to make a cozy, rest filled loving, and peaceful haven for my husband and children. I dreamt of having lifelong friends who know me and love me. I dreamt of having a family who was completely in love with Jesus and lived their life completely and sold out for him. I dreamt of writing songs, singing on stage, and even producing a cd. I dreamt of creating beautiful art that would be sellable. I dreamt of becoming a hairstylist and helping others feel incredibly beautiful both inside and out. I dreamt of going to other countries and helping create projects of sustainability that would generate income and transform people’s lives. I dreamt of taking teams around the world to love on the poor and broken, treating them like they are royalty, clothing them feeding them honoring them in their lives and celebrating the beautiful person they are.
I can honestly say that almost every one of these things I used to dream about has become a reality in my lifetime & I have more than half my life left. Some of the dreams above I am currently pursuing, some are still in seed form, and a few things have yet to be seen, however I can truly say that I am living my dreams.
I’m learning to enjoy the present and live in the now. I am still dreaming, but the focus of my dreams in this season is more about building on the dreams I’ve had since I was a little girl about family and home. My kids are now officially both in high school. In just a few more years and they could both be out on their own. My current dream is to be available as a wife and mom and truly create that cozy, safe, & peaceful place they can call home without the crazy busy rush of life where you feel pressured to “have to ” get the next best thing done for the sake of fulfilling your dream. I want to build my home where my family can both grow and mature into beautiful young adults who have a strong family value for the presence of God, & personal values of loving themselves, and loving others well because one day they to, will have a family and home of their own.
Parenting during the teen years is a whole different animal. Living present & being available is so vital. I know in a few years I’ll be living out of a suitcase and traveling so much more because this girl does have big dreams to change the world and see transformation, but I’m allowing myself time to fully be present at home. I’m learning that being rooted is so important so that the fruit of our lives will remain for generation upon generation. I’m in this for the long haul. Here’s to embracing our reality, and still being on pursuit of the dreams in our heart that haven’t become a reality yet. It’s definitely a paradox, but I’ve finally realized that being rooted is a beautiful thing.